What does aliveness feel like?

Leela School of awakening

I have known Eli Jaxon-Bear since 2015 and have been studying at the Leela School since 2020. The insights have been integrated into my work and my life over time and I am infinitely grateful for them. The opportunity to be in life not from my knowledge and observation, but directly, immediately. My training as a Grinberg practitioner and years of experience with bodywork have laid an important foundation here. It gave me a firmer ground, something I could touch and feel in physical experience.
With this physicality, I was able to venture into the emotional and spiritual realm, something I had previously kept extremely far away from myself out of rationality and fear.

I recently watched the wonderful documentary Indus Blues about traditional music and instruments in Pakistan. A musician and instrument maker there said “Music is like God, you can’t see either.” But I can feel or experience it as vitality.

If I don’t have to cling to the word of God or the divine, then it is simply alive and beautiful, something real, unknown, unpredictable. Then I am not in my head and knowledge and limited and fearful, but simply there, a part of reality with no boundary to reality. This cannot be understood and when I look at it from my head, I cannot see it, cannot grasp it, cannot comprehend it and I feel the aliveness in it from the apparent distance and separation and judge it as fear from my observation platform. So much effort and everything that comes with it, how I am in the world with it.

To be able to recognize this, to see through it and to be able to describe it in this way today, I have learned so much in the Leela School, the exchange and the self-exploration and I continue to explore and learn. And I would like to share this and invite you to do so in an individual session or in a group workshop. I look forward to the exchange and exploration!